partially for my own understanding, but mainly for someone else's
"The process of mourning, Freud thought, was completed when whatever had been lost, for whatever reason, was somehow restored to life within the ego of the mourner. But when the loss occurs at a particularly vulnerable age, the slow process of introjection becomes not only more difficult but also more hazardous. Every child who loses a parent, or someone loved equally passionately and helplessly, must cope as best he can with a confusion of guilt, anger and an outraged sense of abandonment. And since in his innocence he does not understand this, his natural grief is made doubly painful. In order to relieve himself of this apparently gratuitous and inappropriate hostility, he splits it off from himself and projects it onto the lost figure. As a result, it is possible that when the fantasied identification finally takes place, it is invested with all sorts of unimaginable horror. Thereafter, hidden away in some locked cupboard of the mind, he carries the murderous dead thing within him, an unappeased Doppelganger, not to be placated, crying out to be heard, and ready to emerge at every crisis."