Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Pure.

George Jones, John Lennon, Ted Hughes: Three puzzled, honest men who make me cry.
 





Marrero


New Year's Eve, 2013

New Year's Eve should be a good time, I suppose. I always remember a Bill Clinton radio interview years after he was out of office where he talked about how he, as a teen, actually used to spend New Year's Eve alone thinking about what had happened in the year that had gone by... "How nerdy was that," he said in the interview.

As a solitary small-town Southern teen who, once I got my car, visited graveyards and movie theaters in my spare time to find peace, I don't think Clinton's New Year's thoughtfulness was so far-fetched.

Tomorrow night, I'm anticipating no such peacefulness or contemplation of the year past, just a clenching of teeth against the fireworks outside my window lasting 'til 4am.

It's a shame.

On Cowboys football, Christmas, et al.

Way back in '89 or so, when my first girlfriend and I had been dating for about 6 months, we were lazing around on a Sunday afternoon, flipping through TV channels. I stopped on a Cowboys game, which I really wanted to watch. She became agitated, insisting I change the channel (which I didn't want to do), finally blurting out: "When I was growing up, I HAD to watch that every Sunday." Funny, but as a small-town Texas girl, that's all I grew up watching every Sunday, too. Only, it was a FOND memory for me, not an element of torture. It was a FUN thing to root for the Cowboys with my dad and the whole family.

This same first girlfriend also never wanted to go see Rick Broussard/Two Hoots and Holler with me, a band I found tremendously personal and inspiring. I managed to drag her to exactly ONE show; her sole sullen response: "No one here is into vampires." This same person owned exactly TWO books: a Scientology tome by L. Ron Hubbard and "Lolita." This same 36-year-old person (I was 23) also took me to an alleged "Christmas" party where there were nothing but drug-addled 19-year-olds sitting on the floor around a small, shitty tree decorated with spiders and skulls playing "The Alphabet Game" -- which involved sing-songing "A is for Asshole, B is for Butthole, C is for Cunt..."

I think I'd failed to explain myself to this woman: I liked Cowboys football. My favorite local band was Two Hoots and a Holler, which is why I wanted to share the experience of seeing them with her. I thought those who liked vampires and L. Ron Hubbard and "Lolita" were immature fetishists. I liked my Christmas bright and shiny and tinselly and full of food and family fun --- as low-rent as I got on Christmas was liking and wanting to hear the Rat Pack Christmas album among the other traditional Christmas songs.

A "hip" co-worker, trying to be hip, once said to me that she loved going to get a greasy burger on Christmas; my response was that I could get a greasy burger every day of the year; on Christmas, I liked having a home-cooked turkey meal. Same with Cowboys football: I can get shitty "A is for Asshole" sing-songing by random idiotic people every day of the year; when it comes to communally watching a Cowboys game, though, you get a group mutually emotionally invested in something and not (for heaven's boring sake) being ironic about it.

Monday, December 30, 2013

I Love My Books

I mean I LOOOOOOOOOVE them; not just reading or anticipating reading the few I haven't yet, but also just sitting around and looooooking at them.

As his Christmas gift to me this year, my brother bought me a bookshelf at my favorite consignment store --- I think this is the fourth time I've asked for exactly this from him for either Christmas or my birthday.

Once I got the new one home yesterday (the previously-lonely twin for the one I'd bought at the same place last year), I spent a crazy 6 HOURS (from 11pm to 5am -- I was worn out by 2, but I couldn't quit) unloading all of my books to the center of my floor and then rearranging them to where I thought/felt they "belonged" now that I had the extra space. For instance, all the fiction together, all the poetry together, the nonfiction, the philosophy, the entertainment, etc. What freak does that? (Not my brother. He and his wife also have a billion books; when I asked if he groups them in any particular way... "Uh...no.")






Sunday, December 29, 2013

Rick Broussard, last summer

He's still fucking cool (in a real, non-hipster way), still feeling the music. (And, as he says here, playing music in Austin "since Jimmy Carter was president" -- good lord, we're old!) ;p
 

More Rick Broussard, Black Cat/Austin '91

Sorry to keep going on about this, but I was there at the Black Cat to see Rick nearly every Monday for 2 or more years. Looks like a lot of footage just got posted to YouTube... (I wasn't one of the girls right up front in this video, but I'm sure I'm one of the ones hollering in the background.) His shows were absolutely fantastic. His original music was great, the covers he chose were great, the vibe was sexy and exciting. And then there were the $1 Pabst Blue Ribbons, the $1 roasted weiners (over an open bonfire out back), and the adventure of traipsing to an actual outhouse (just past the weiner roast) whenever you had to pee. I greatly looked forward to every Monday night.
 

New Shower Curtain


 

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Have yourself an Elfy little Christmas

 
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Edelweiss

After I wrote on 12/15 about finding Eleanor Parker sexy in "Sound of Music" when I was a kid, the film came on network TV this past Sunday night, and I rewatched for the first time in at least 30 years... How beautiful it was. Christopher Plummer's Captain reminded me of Ashley Wilkes in "Gone With the Wind" -- mourning a world not yet, but soon to be, lost.


Sunday, December 22, 2013

Stuff

Here's all the crap I ordered (see the 12/17 entry), finally unwrapped. Took me over an hour just to open all the packages. Two of the sweaters (black ones, which I most needed) didn't fit at all (and so now to go through the eBay hassle of trying to re-sell); the "Hollywood backlot" and "Long Tail" books I wouldn't have ordered again. The two sweaters in the top row, far left, I really liked; I also really liked "The Story of Hollywood" and "Pronoia" books. I'd been debating whether to wait to Christmas to open everything -- glad I just went ahead and did it now; nothing was grand enough to make for joy on Christmas, and the packages were junking up my living room.

Friday, December 20, 2013

A move for the Bastet cat

My Bastet cat, shown at the right of the photo, was an inheritance from my German aunt who had actually visited the Egyptian Museum in Cairo and purchased it there.
 
Originally, I had Bastet sitting by the ashes of my cat Gracie, for companionship. Then I moved her to my bookshelf, kind of a bookend for my antiquities histories. Upon reading today that she was regarded as the "goddess of ointments and perfumes," I moved her to my perfumes. But then, after reading more, I realized that her "perfume goddess" designation -- after being such a fierce warrior goddess for so long -- was a real come-down only in latter-day Egyptian mythology! Ooops. Still, she looks kinda good with my perfumes so she's gonna sit there for a while. Be cool for a millisec, Bastet! Guarding briefly, not a whole civilization, but rather the history of one girl's emotional life since age 14! (Seriously -- that bottle of Wild Musk Oil at the front is the actual bottle that I got when I was 14 -- still 1/3 full; my first "womanly" perfume after a bottle of Love's Rain Soft lasted me my two years of junior high.)
 
 
 

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From Wikipedia:

From the 3rd millennium BC, when Bast begins to appear in our records, she is depicted as either a fierce lioness or a woman with the head of a lioness. ...

Originally she was viewed as the protector goddess of Lower Egypt. As protector, she was seen as defender of the pharaoh, and consequently of the later chief male deity, Ra, who was also a solar deity, gaining her the titles Lady of Flame and Eye of Ra.

Her role in the Egyptian pantheon became diminished as Sekhmet, a similar lioness war deity, became more dominant in the unified culture of Lower and Upper Egypt known as the Two Lands.

Later scribes sometimes renamed her Bastet, a variation on Bast consisting of an additional feminine suffix to the one already present (the "t" of Bast), thought to have been added to emphasize pronunciation; perhaps it is a diminutive name applied as she receded in the ascendancy of Sekhmet in the Egyptian pantheon. Since Bast literally meant, (female) of the ointment jar, Her name was related with the lavish jars in which Egyptians stored their perfume.

Bast thus gradually became regarded as the goddess of perfumes, earning the title, perfumed protector. In connection with this, when Anubis became the god of embalming, Bast, as goddess of ointment, came to be regarded as his wife....
 
Lower Egypt's loss in the wars between Upper and Lower Egypt led to a decrease in the ferocity of Bast. Thus, by the Middle Kingdom she came to be regarded as a domestic cat rather than a lioness. Occasionally, however, she was depicted holding a lioness mask, hinting at her potential ferocity and perhaps, a reminder of her origin.
 
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Oh, Vienna!

I just ordered these, used, for about $4 apiece (!) I can't wait! I've always been interested in the city because of its associations with Klimt (and Schiele) and Freud (and my grand-uncle) and Hitler's poverty as an artist/unsuccessful application to art school there... And author Morton's idea of a confluence of forces in a particular time/place reminded me of the odd feeling I got days ago when I figured out that Plath killed herself in London just 4 hours before the Beatles began recording their debut album, under 2 miles away. (I'm sure there is much more to the London "coincidence"-- perhaps these two Vienna books by Morton will help me figure out how to go about unraveling what made me feel so eerie...)
 
 
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"On January 30, 1889, at the champagne-splashed hight of the Viennese Carnival, the handsome and charming Crown Prince Rudolf fired a revolver at his teenaged mistress and then himself. The two shots that rang out at Mayerling in the Vienna Woods echo still.

Frederic Morton...deftly tells the haunting story of the Prince and his city, where, in the span of only ten months, "the Western dream started to go wrong." In Rudolf's Vienna moved other young men with striking intellectual and artistic talents—and all as frustrated as the Prince. Among them were: young Sigmund Freud, Gustav Mahler, Theodor Herzl, Gustav Klimt, and the playwright Arthur Schnitzler, whose La Ronde was the great erotic drama of the fin de siecle. Morton studies these and other gifted young men, interweaving their fates with that of the doomed Prince and the entire city through to the eve of Easter, just after Rudolf's body is lowered into its permanent sarcophagus and a son named Adolf Hitler is born to Frau Klara Hitler."


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"Thunder at Twilight is a landmark of historical vision, drawing on hitherto untapped sources to illuminate two crucial years in the life of the extraordinary city of Vienna—and in the life of the twentieth century. It was during the carnival of 1913 that a young Stalin arrived on a mission that would launch him into the upper echelon of Russian revolutionaries, and it was here that he first collided with Trotsky. It was in Vienna that the failed artist Adolf Hitler kept daubing watercolors and spouting tirades at fellow drifters in a flophouse. Here Archduke Franz Ferdinand had a troubled audience with Emperor Franz Joseph—and soon the bullet that killed the archduke would set off the Great War that would kill ten million more. With luminous prose that has twice made him a finalist for the National Book Award, Frederic Morton evokes the opulent, elegant, incomparable sunset metropolis—Vienna on the brink of cataclysm."
 

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Merry Christmas to ME!

One of the hazards of a lot of dead time at work is...desperate to amuse yourself, you might tend to turn to ONLINE SHOPPING (once you've gotten over any initial paranoia and figured out that no one cares what sites you visit on your computer).

Pictured here are piles of stuff that have been arriving at my doorstep for the past 2 weeks or so. Why unopened? Because I just don't actually care about what it was that I ordered. I mean, it's nothing crazily expensive or overly exciting: mainly used $20 black wool sweaters from eBay (to replace the crappy $20 black cotton sweaters I ordered last year) and used $5 books from Amazon and a few more CDs and some red socks in there somewhere, I think; oh, and maybe a lipstick or hair product or two... Shopping IS a time-passer, but I'm kind of peeved at myself for not comprehending that all these $20/$5 purchases ADD UP! This is about a $300 pile here. And, honestly, about a third of the clothing items I buy online end up not fitting properly and thus is money completely wasted.

Though I tell myself brightly: "I'll just re-sell it!" Somehow that never works out properly! For instance: I bought a sweater I really liked for $24.99 (manufacturer's price $63 or something) despite the fact that it was listed outright as a size smaller than I normally wear. But I suppose I thought my "magical thinking" would make it magically fit by the time it arrived... NOPE. I did re-sell on eBay with a starting bid of $9.99 --- it sold on about the 7th time I listed it...for $12.99. Similarly, I sold a pair of ankle boots that I bought new online only last year (for $80 or so) -- and that never fit properly -- for a mere $9.99 this year, despite having only worn them twice. That's how that usually works out.

(Books and CDs, on the other hand, I've had much better luck with when ordering online -- only about 5% or so have turned out to be in much worse shape than the seller initially indicated.)

In short... I've gotta quit the Boredom Shopping! I suppose I'll keep this pile sitting here until Christmas and then open as presents to myself. (I asked my mom to get me a dental cleaning for Christmas, so these will probably be the most exciting gifts I get!)

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Eleanor Parker (6/26/22 - 12/9/13)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eleanor_Parker

Back when I first saw 1965's "Sound of Music" on TV in the '70s, I liked it a lot. But, in the back of my little mind... WHO was THAT playing the Baroness? And would it have been so bad at all if the Captain had married HER instead of Maria? (The Baroness was oh-so-glamorous, and who CARED if she couldn't play that stupid ball game with the kids and kept getting hit...though her constant sideways glances WERE annoying...And she DID convince Simple Maria to go back to the convent... I suppose this kind of thing has already been explored with "The Madwoman in the Attic" and "Wicked," though! Ah, but the Baroness, you knew, was going to survive... She didn't love the Captain "like that." And certainly wasn't ever about to traipse around the world as a political refugee.)

 

 
 
Turns out she -- Eleanor Parker -- was an accomplished actress, not just a schoolgirl crush or a fashion-plate. Nominated for an Oscar three times: for 1950's "Caged"; 1951's "Detective Story"; and 1955's "Interrupted Melody."
 
 
 

1990 - Two Hoots and a Holler, Austin

The boy in the middle, the leader of the band, was the one I was in love with. Saw these guys almost every Monday at the Black Cat Lounge on 6th Street in Austin in '90-'91.
 

Carnal Knowledge ("The Sky's the Limit")

I first saw this '71 film in 1987 when I was 22, a year before I'd ever had sex. Watching it was like doing drugs --- as-yet forbidden, unearned insights for the uninitiated. (Sandy and Jonathan both equally lost and clueless, though -- I recognized it then and also just now, after re-viewing on TCM last night. The most illuminating moment, then as now: Jonathan's slideshow (woops! an "accidental" photo of his prepubescent daughter slipped in with all of the "ball-busters" --- the same reason I think D.H. Lawrence is a dick, and ALL of his writing suspect, to this day: his calling an 8-year-old girl a "bitch").


Saturday, December 14, 2013

Horoscope


Your horoscope - Week of December 16, 2013 
 
 An unhealthy friendship may end on Tuesday. Strive to form relationships with folks who are worthy of your time.

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Just about there, Horoscope.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

London: February 11, 1963

I just discovered today that on Monday, February 11, 1963, the Beatles -- my favorite band -- entered the EMI Studios on 3 Abbey Road in London at 10 am to record their very first album, "Please Please Me."

About 5 hours earlier that same Monday morning, at 23 Fitzroy Road -- only 2 miles away from where the Beatles were about to record -- my favorite poet, the 30-year-old Sylvia Plath, had just put her head in her gas oven. (Her body was discovered around 9 am.)

The boys in their early 20s, still just scruffy guys playing clubs and touring locally as backups to 2nd-rate openers, only months away from their Universal Big Bang... And Plath at only 30, with every brilliant thing already written (yet unknown) and now completely imploding, sucked into the Black Hole of Self.







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p.s. This reminds me in a lesser way of the 4/18/60 "Ban the Bomb" march on Trafalgar Square in London. I only initially knew about the event because Plath had written about it in her letters (she was pissed off because husband Ted had gone without her, so she found another friend to go with -- and dragged along her 2-week-old baby). As I found out only last year when looking at my mother's old scrapbooks: My mother was at the same march, as a 19-year-old German au pair girl in London for the year... Funny (in a great, human way) how neither Plath nor my mother were there precisely for the intended function! :)  Plath, to spite her husband; my 19-year-old mom, just for the event-of-it! :)

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

No Smoking

In my local government's ridiculous attempt at assuaging the idiotic miasma of the PC police: There's no smoking allowed where I work.

And so, before my half-hour bus-ride home every day after work, I've been scuttling around corners like Gregor in my attempts to sneak a cigarette.

Thought I'd found a daily haven behind one huge oak, but, as of a couple of days ago, nah: The kids passing by don't give a shit, but there's one genre of person who does care mightily: The circa-65-year-old-woman-with-a-walker on her way to her car after work. As she informed me: "This is a smoke-free area. Now, PUT IT UP!"

Good-fucking-lord.

I didn't "put it up," just walked past her a few feet and turned a corner to where I could finish my smoke in peace without her seeing me. (She was old and sad and had I spouted at her "You're aging and sick and you have no control over anything in your personal world, and so you're picking these extremely petty battles to make yourself feel better!" -- well, that obviously wouldn't have done either of us any good.)

The "rule" is sad. Her having-nothing-better-to-do-than-tell-random-others-what-to-do is sad. My having to skulk around corners to have my cig before the bus-ride home is sad.

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Books That Have Touched You

Just got the following "instruction" from a Facebook friend:

"Rules: In your status line, list ten books that have stayed with you. Don't take more than a few minutes; don't think too hard. They don't have to be great works, just the ones that have touched you."

Here were eleven of mine (ordered from the time I read them onward, starting with GWTW at age 12):

Gone With the Wind
In Cold Blood
Nicholas and Alexandra
The Beatles Forever (Nicholas Schaffner)
The Bell Jar
1984
Catcher in the Rye
The Collected Poems of Sylvia Plath
Conversations with Joan Crawford
Two Girls, Fat and Thin (Mary Gaitskill)
Birthday Letters (Ted Hughes)

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Let me share lists from three others who shared:

1. J. R. R. Tolkien. The Lord of the Rings.
2. Walter Pater. The Renaissance: Studies in Art and Poetry.
3. Robert Graves. The White Goddess.
4. Carl Sagan. Cosmos.
5. William Morris. The Well at the End of the World.
6. Guest, Lady Charlotte (ed.). The Mabinogion.
7. Luigi Serafini. Codex Seraphinianus.
8. J.-K. Huysmans. Against the Grain.
9. Robert Bootzin. Bare Feet and Good Things to Eat.
10. Beowulf.


1. Complete Works of Shakespeare
2. Lord of the Rings
3. Aleister Crowley, Magick Book 4/Book of Thoth
4. Gogol, Dead Souls
5. Anthony Burgess Enderby Novels
6. Martin Amis, London Trilogy
7. JM Coetzee, Waiting for the Barbarians
8. Niccolo Machiavelli, The Prince & Discourses On Livy
9. Peter Kingsley, Works
10. Umberto Eco, Foucault's Pendulum


The Secret of Scent by Luca Turin
100 Years Of Solitude Gabriel Garcia Marquez
The Florence King Reader

The Roald Dahl Omnibus
Dune Frank Herbert
A Guide To The Good Life: The Ancient Art of Stoic Joy, William B Irvine
Candide, Voltaire
Little Dorrit, Dickens
Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte
Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
The Downtown Diaries, Jim Carroll
Wyrd Sisters by Terry Pratchett

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I 100% refuse to believe that 75% of what these people wrote actually "touched" them. Seems like they had an IDEA of what they were SUPPOSED TO like and be "touched by" and list in order to seem cool/intellectual for the public. (Seriously: "The Complete Works of Shakespeare" -- If you really love Shakespeare and pay attention to his works and are intellectually honest, then of course you don't love EVERYTHING he wrote and can recognize the lesser plays/poems.)

Saturday, December 07, 2013

Let's Spend the Night Together

 
 

 
 

My Rape Story

Jameis Winston, Florida State QB and Heisman candidate, was exonerated yesterday of charges that he'd raped a co-ed:

The alleged victim first went to Florida State Police on December 7, 2012, saying that she had been raped early that morning, but did not know the identity of her alleged attacker. Initially, according to the case file, she described the suspect as a black male with a "'short afro' that looked like it needed to be cut." Then, on January 10, 2013, she left a voicemail for the investigating detective saying that she believed her alleged attacker was Jameis Winston, and that he was in one of her classes.

As it turned out, DNA proved that Jameis Winston was indeed the rapist. (Other DNA -- aka "semen" -- found on the victim was from her boyfriend.)

I found myself in similar circumstances in May of 2000. I'd gone out by myself to one gay club, looking for my ex-girlfriend. Didn't find her, but did run into a couple of her gay guy friends (guys that I also knew from clubbing). They said they were headed to another club, and I should meet them there. I drove on over... Didn't immediately see the two guys, but, being a warm night, just sat on the hood of my car waiting for them, soaking up the ambience of people coming and going from the club. A male stranger approached me and said "hi" and how/what was I doing... ME: "Just hangin' out." He said he was a "dick dancer" at the club we were sitting outside of --- meaning a gay stripper. I told him that I was gay, and was waiting for some guy friends to show up. We sat on the hood of my car and chatted in a friendly way for nearly a half-hour. As it became clear that my gay-guy acquaintances weren't showing up, the "dick dancer" mentioned that he had some cocaine and did I want to do some with him? I did. What the hell. But I didn't want to do it right there on the street, being afraid of cops and all (!). So I asked the guy to come on over to my apartment.

I drove him to my home, 10 minutes away. As soon as he entered, he asked, "Do you have a dog?" No. And he asked if my neighbors were nosy. And then he asked that I close my balcony shades, which I always kept open. We then sat on my futon, at least 3 feet between us, and watched MTV for a bit --- I remember Christina Aguilera was one of the videos, and that he said he liked her. I served us beers and we snorted some coke while we watched TV. What we talked about mainly, I don't remember, other than the now-significant question that he asked me straight out: "Do you think you would ever date me?" I told him, no, I was gay, I liked women. (I'd said the same while sitting on the hood of the car outside the gay club; and, since he was a "dick dancer" from said club, I assumed that he wasn't that interested in women himself.)

After maybe an hour of chatting and drinking and doing 2 lines of coke, I had to go to the bathroom. While I was sitting on the toilet seat peeing, he pushed open the closed bathroom door and dragged me off the toilet and into the bedroom right outside. That's when the rape began. I was raped first on my bed. I remember being coherent and asking stupid questions like, "Why are you doing this?" And saying stupid things like, "No, I don't want this." As if those "affirmations" would make any difference. He stuck his dick into me multiple times, then, when finished coming, said to me: "Go clean yourself up." He watched while I washed out my vagina in the bathroom.

Post-vagina-cleaning, he and I sat in my living room while we both got our clothes back on. He actually said at this point, "I don't know what happened." And then, "I need a ride home."

I was a bit relieved that he wasn't a psychopathic rapist/murderer and that I wouldn't be dying this evening, but also shocked at his audacity: This guy had just raped me, and now he was asking me to take him home??? Which is exactly what I said to him. Which is when his eyes (literally) turned black and he lunged at me again.

(Another dumb thing: As he was on top of me, I was worried about my burning cigarette and told him so. He grabbed it out of my hand and snuffed it out on my nearby "Webster's New World College Dictionary." Still have that dictionary and that cigarette burn.)

As he raped me the second time, he said, "We're going to do this 10 times tonight." When I heard that, something inside of me turned utterly cold --- I'd been relatively passive up 'til this point: not physically violent toward him (because I didn't want to get killed), just saying "no," etc. After he watched me wash up the second time, I told him I needed to let my cat out for the evening...  I was naked, with just a towel around me... As I opened the front door of my apartment to let my cat out, I also ran out to my nearest neighbor, banging on their door to help me...

That evening/early morning I called the police and told them I'd been raped. I spent the next 6 hours sitting in the lobby of a local hospital waiting for the local "rape specialist" to become available and administer the "rape kit" testing.

The very next day, I pressed charges, and the case went to a Grand Jury. (Which, I found out, consisted primarily of retired people.) Weeks later, after my testimony, the Grand Jury verdict came back: The guy that raped me would not be prosecuted, would not even be brought to trial.

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The worst parts about this for me are many and not all involving the rapist himself:

One, that I was raped at about 1am and had to sit in a hospital awaiting rape-kit testing until 7am.

Two, that the Grand Jury didn't even see fit to bring the case to trial.

Three, that, when I told my mother months later that I'd been raped, her first reaction was, "Had you been drinking?"

Four, my own real-life father would probably say, "You deserved it." (My father's actual take on the OJ Simpson trial: Nicole Simpson was "bought and paid for.")

Five: People I've told about this have been ridiculous. The ex-girlfriend I initially set out to meet that night:  I did turn to her for comfort after that night. She came to the hospital, for which I was grateful, but then thought we should spend the next night "doing each other's makeup and hair." (Really, YOU FUCKING IDIOT? I was just RAPED.)  Later, another woman I was in love with ignored my mention of the rape altogether. (Seriously -- how can one ignore it when someone mentions that they were raped?)

Where was/is my protector? Anyone?

Friday, December 06, 2013

Your Fucking Horoscope

 
Oddly, broadly TRUE! :)  The only listing I might personally disagree with is the one for Capricorns: I've known several over the years, and they've been almost uniformly solid and decent (as opposed to the "money-grubbing" and "poseur-ness" implied here). I also wouldn't call ANY of the many Leo men I've known "Egotistical Douchebags" --- I've liked every one of them!
 
Love, your Egotistical Douchebag blogger

Wednesday, December 04, 2013

Continuum (New Yorker, 11/18/13)

"The human mind has changed very little in thousands of years, and basic desires and instincts remain the same, with certain societal patterns repeated endlessly. 'We're just a component of a much longer trajectory than we realize,' Adams said. 'We think that this moment is special, that everything has led to this point. But our here and now is just a blip along the continuum.'"

My note: This New Yorker article was about recent archaeological expeditions in Egypt, about looters over the millennia, the current state of Egyptian politics, etc. The quote above reminded me of viewing the extensive permanent Egyptian collection at the Metropolitan Museum in NYC in 2008 or so for the first time: As a younger person, with only surface knowledge of the (I youngly thought) dramatic, glamorous pharaohs, I'd always thought that the Egyptian civilization as a whole was magical, mystical... But upon viewing said exhibit: There was so much shitty, everyday detritus there! 2000-year-old shopping lists and graffiti and cheap trinkets... just like today!

A sad story (from "Find the Bad Guy" by Jeffrey Eugenides in the 11/18 New Yorker)

"...In addition to finding the bad guy in every argument, couples do this thing called the Protest Polka. That's a dance where one partner seeks reassurance about the relationship and approaches the other, but because that person usually does this by complaining or being angry, the other partner wants to get the hell away, and so retreats."

"Back then, we weren't fleeing or chasing each other. We were just seeking, and, every time one of us went looking, there the other was, waiting to be found."

Folks, HERE is how you get off a mf'ing train!