...and I've been comfortable and lovelorn.
Let me tell ya: "Comfortable and lovelorn" is 100% better.
There's still the niggling sensation, but in the meantime, you can order whatever stuff you want and pretty much live in a place close to what you want. And that does somewhat cover your feelings of loss.
I speak from experience. Try it. Try getting a little more money and then see just how your past obsessions with random idiots fades. When you bump yourself up, you see a whole new group of people --- equally interesting, but far less dysfunctional, obviously, since they've made it to a higher level. I've dumbed myself down for so long, I'm grateful to finally be around smart people.