Solomon's dying

Solomon (Mini) has been vomiting up bile and not eating for a week now, since a week ago Friday, when I heard the most gut-wrenching yowls come out of her mouth before she threw up for the first time. Since then: more throwing up (foamy bile), secreting herself next to porcelain toilets and tubs with her face turned to the wall (where she never, ever used to sit and where I've seen other dying cats sit). Although in the last couple of days, she's come out to the living room area and again jumped up on the couch with me, and hung out with the other cats, though just sitting there and not playing. And I still haven't seen her eat anything for the past week.

When my cat Gracie died on April 15, 2009, she had been sick since January of that year. Didn't know what was wrong with her, but I didn't have any money to fix it, and she just deteriorated. On the night that she died, I was drunk and arguing with Sandra on the phone. Gracie was at my feet asking for attention, but I was too busy drinking and arguing. I went to bed drunk. When I woke up the next morning, Gracie was stiff and dead, stretched out on the kitchen rug.

After last Friday, seeing Solomon throw up so horribly, I drank on Saturday, as usual. Woke up Sunday feeling godawful, as usual. I expected to see Solomon dead, but she was still living. I made a calm decision to not drink at all until I either saw her eat something or she died. I didn't want to repeat the night of Gracie's death, when I was too wrapped up in my own BS to pay any attention to her in her last moments.

I haven't had a drink for 6 days. Which is my longest streak ever since... the 1990s? I usually drink every OTHER day, but have never gone 6 days sans any drink for a couple of decades.

Today, Saturday, Solomon is still not eating properly. For the past couple of days, I've placed numerous types of food before her: people-chicken, people-tuna, special cat food-packets, etc. She licks at some of these, but still doesn't eat. She's skin-and-bones when I stroke her. I don't know how she's surviving.