Friday, January 28, 2022

Life-Changer: Kid at UT-Austin "Daily Texan"

I was a smart kid at Azle High School: Editor of the school paper, and winner of academic awards every year (English/English/English/History); then won statewide University Interscholastic League (UIL) awards, most importantly to me: Second in State for Editorial Writing.

Once I got to the University of Texas at Austin at age 18, I went in for an interview with a 20-something member of UT's "Daily Texan" newspaper staff. He asked me "what I read." At the time, I only read the daily Austin paper and the subscription to "Time" magazine that my mother had paid for (though I'd been reading "Time" for the past 10 years as a kid at home) and "Rolling Stone." When I mentioned "Time" magazine, the 20-something smirked and then brushed me off.

This smug kid, for whatever reason, let me know that I wasn't welcome. And I let this snarky 20-something keep me from being a part of the newspaper staff that I had previously thought I could be a part of (based on my previous qualifications and interests). What, though, could I have done differently? At age 18, reading the local paper and "Time" and "Rolling Stone" weren't good enough to indicate a skill set appropriate for the college paper?

That rejection did, indeed, change my life. And made me distrust the "gatekeepers." This one person didn't like me and so kept me from being a part of UT's "Daily Texan" staff, though I was smart and well-qualified.

I went on to hang out with poets, and to get an English degree. But I still miss the camaraderie and intensity of putting out a paper. And I will never forget this one creep mocking me for reading the out-of-fashion "Time" magazine and not being "cool" enough to work for UT's "Daily Texan."

Wednesday, January 26, 2022

Wuhan and Work Today

Wuhan (Covid) struck in the US in March 2020. I'd quit my cozy university job in October of 2019 and was temping in the months after. During Wuhan: Got hired permanently (via phone) at a new place in April 2020. Have only met my co-workers on three occasions in the past 2 years.

At first, the separation from co-workers seemed odd and a bit surreal. There's still a feeling of disassociation, despite our daily morning meetings via Teams. But what I do like about this new life: I don't have to get up and do my hair and makeup and clothes every day. (My clothing purchases over the past 2 years have been nothing but sneakers and sweat-pants and jeggings.)

I don't have to deal with awful Austin traffic to and from work. I'm not sucked in to office politics (I always had an opinion in the past. I always will have an opinion. But "opinions" are not conducive to being happy at a job. Being off-site keeps me at a safe distance.)

At some point, this 2-year oasis of high pay and utter non-engagement will have to end. How will I function then?! I'm spoiled! Can I demand to stay at home after this?


Roman Polanski kick on Netflix

Just recently watched Polanski's 1962 debut "Knife in the Water" (loved it) and 1965's "Repulsion" (thought it mediocre) for the first time. Others that I've seen over the years from Polanski: Rosemary's Baby, Chinatown, Tess, Bitter Moon, Death and the Maiden, The Pianist.

After the brilliance of "Knife," have put as many Polanski films as available in my Netflix queue:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roman_Polanski_filmography

Year Title Distribution
1962 Knife in the Water Zespol Filmowy
1965 Repulsion Compton Films
1966 Cul-de-sac Compton-Cameo Films
1967 The Fearless Vampire Killers[a] Metro-Goldwyn-Mayer
1968 Rosemary's Baby Paramount Pictures
1971 Macbeth Columbia Pictures
1972 What?
1974 Chinatown Paramount Pictures
1976 The Tenant
1979 Tess Columbia Pictures
1986 Pirates The Cannon Group, Inc.
1988 Frantic Warner Bros.
1992 Bitter Moon Fine Line Features
1994 Death and the Maiden
1999 The Ninth Gate BAC Films / Araba Films
2002 The Pianist Focus Features
2005 Oliver Twist Pathé
2010 The Ghost Writer StudioCanal UK
2011 Carnage Sony Pictures Classics
2013 Venus in Fur BAC Films
2017 Based on a True Story
2019 An Officer and a Spy Gaumont / 01 Distribution

 

Tuesday, January 25, 2022

Dumb Dem 20th-Century Foreign Policy Moves in Europe

Post-WWI: Dem US President Woodrow Wilson and the Treaty of Versailles. Crippled Germany and just made them mad.

Post -WWII: Dem US President Franklin D. Roosevelt. Handed over Eastern Europe to Russia, created the Eastern Bloc and subsequent Cold War.

Cuban Missile Crisis: Dem US President John F. Kennedy. The US placed ballistic missiles in Italy and Turkey, and the USSR responded by threatening to place missiles in Cuba. After days of drama, the US agreed to withdraw its missiles from Italy and Turkey, and the USSR agreed to not place missiles in Cuba. (US media reported this as the USSR backing down, but in fact, the US agreed to withdraw its own missiles first.)

Today: Dem US President Joe Biden. Russia threatens to invade its former satellite state of Ukraine. Biden threatens to send 8,000 (!) troops to Ukraine in response to the 125,000 Russian troops massed on the Russia/Ukraine border. Per the above "Cuban Missile Crisis": Russia doesn't want the bordering Ukraine as part of NATO, which it's been threatening to become. (Just as Khrushchev didn't want Italy and Turkey to have missiles aimed at the Soviet Union.) If smart, the US will say: "OK, Ukraine won't be part of NATO"---and Russia will withdraw its troops from the border. If dumb (which Biden decidedly is), the US will really send troops to a part of the world that we have absolutely no military interest in.

p.s. Germany: Why are you still in NATO? Your current business/energy deals with Russia should completely preclude you from a NATO alliance and any US defense aid (the initial post-WWII purpose of NATO being defense against Russia). BUT: Do you REALLY want to throw in your lot with the Russians rather than with the West? I'd think twice about that.

Monday, January 24, 2022

Austin City Limits: George Jones (1986)

Today, ACL features rap and electronica and whatever random shit is momentarily popular. No more Americana (country/bluegrass/blues) per its foundation, no more connection to Austin, Texas, whatsoever. Zero soul left.

Sunday, January 23, 2022

State Department Wannabe

When I was a Senior in high school (1983), there was no Internet, but I was interested in Russia and so tried to learn the language via a chart from the 1950s set of encyclopedias in our house. When I went to college in the fall of '83, I enrolled in a first-semester Russian language course as part of my youthful plan to ultimately join the State Department as a Russian expert.

I wasn't very good at languages, and did not pursue my Russian language studies. (To graduate from UT Austin, I had to have 4 semesters of a language: I ended up taking German, the language of my mother.) I was also not very good at the first Foreign Policy class that I took: I studied hard, and I also worked in the Government Department of the university---where I was responsible for printing out the  tests... Oh, yes, I cheated. And still got a "B" in the class! (How do you cheat and still get a "B"??)



 

Repulsion (Polanski, 1965)

 Dumb poster; movie only slightly less dumb, except in black and white (which makes it look more hip).

My Netflix review:
Ah, Bad Boy Polanski, here of the rotting potatoes and rabbit... If you're looking for a psychological thriller along the lines of Hitchcock's "Psycho" or "Marnie," you didn't come to the right place. "Repulsion" isn't a movie with a plot or reason, but rather a series of well-shot poses and "Incidents." Deneuve looks blank and lovely, as usual; but her character is not a real woman, just a canvas upon which Polanski plays out his own neuroses (just as many other directors have done). 

Saturday, January 22, 2022

When Fuchsia Shoes Are On Sale...

...you MUST buy!
I'm not a runner, nor much of a walker any more (had my fill of walking, and paid my environmental dues, for a whopping 9 years from 2007 thru 2016, when I didn't have a car and walked miles every day in freezing/boiling temps)---although I HAVE been buying a bunch of sneakers while not going in to work because of Covid over the past 2 years... I don't "need" these shoes at all, but... this color is so pretty to me---I just WANT them!


Austin Homicides 2022: Of the 5 so far...

 ...3 of the 5 (2 just this morning) have been within 2 miles of where I live. Not previously known as a high-crime area. https://cbsaustin.com/news/local/austin-police-department-investigating-double-fatal-shooting-in-north-austin-suspect-is-in-custody-two-people-shot-dead-in-parking-lot

Thanks, soft-on-crime/defund-the-police/lower-bail liberals and Mayor Adler and DA!

In 2021, Austin had a record 88 homicides---FAR surpassing the previous record from 1984. Looks like 2022 is off to a similar GREAT start!

Austin murder chart since 1981 (per 100,000 residents): https://www.kxan.com/news/crime/map-where-have-austins-homicides-occurred-in-2022/   (This page is from Jan. 10; doesn't include the 2 murders that happened this morning.)

When will the f***ing liberal madness end?

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Update: As of 1/26/22: There are now 8 murders in Austin: https://www.fox7austin.com/news/8-homicides-in-austin-in-first-four-weeks-of-2022-6-this-weekend

Thursday, January 20, 2022

1912 publicity for Nijinsky's "Afternoon of a Faun" by Leon Bakst

Just received today and haven't yet hung up.
So beautiful! Nijinsky and the Bakst art and the framing!
I'm not making very much money, but I'm making enough
so that I can buy some beautiful things like this. I'm very grateful.




 

Tuesday, January 18, 2022

George Jones: Loving You Could Never Be Better (1972)

Tammy is singing backup, out of sight offstage. George doesn't look happy about something.

Tammy Wynette and George Jones: We're Not the Jet Set (1974)

One of the best set of lyrics ever! "Our steak and martinis is draft beer with weenies..."

Wednesday, January 12, 2022

Le Sacre du printemps / The Rite of Spring - Ballets Russes (May 29, 1913)

Stravinsky's "The Rite of Spring," with choreography by Nijinsky,
debuted at the Théâtre des Champs-Élysées in Paris on May 29, 1913.

The audience was mightily disturbed (more likely by the discordant dance than by the music):
https://www.classicfm.com/composers/stravinsky/news/rite-and-the-riot/

Considered a major part of the birth of Modernism because of its utter break with classic dance.

This is the 100th anniversary performance, reproducing the original.

Nijinsky!

 

After dancing with Diaghilev's Ballets Russes from 1909, and choreographing the seminal modernist "Afternoon of the Faun" (1912) and "The Rite of Spring" (1913), Nijinsky was kicked out of the company in 1913 by lover/mentor Diaghilev because of Nijinsky's marriage to a woman.

Am currently reading Nijinsky's uncensored 1919 diaries (published as "The Diary of Vaslav Nijinsky"), an account of his mental breakdown. (He was subsequently institutionalized off and on until his death in 1950.)

I'm only about half-way through the book. In parts, as when he's recounting his youth (and poverty and sexual abuse by Diaghilev), he's lucid. In much of it, though, he's either in a schizophrenic fugue or else doing a form of automatic writing, in which he constantly channels any irrational thought that comes into his head. (In which case, he's not crazy, just experimenting.) 

At one point, he breaks from his dense pages of prose into "poetry." It goes on for 4 pages, but what I was reminded of, and what I'm condensing here, are lines that remind me very much of John Lennon and his Beatles song "I Am the Walrus," as well as "I'm Only Sleeping" and "Julia." (The Nijinsky diary was initially published in the late 1930s, and so would have been available to Lennon.)

Note: "Rif" is the first syllable of the Russian word for "rhyme": rifma.

...We are rif. You are rif we are rif. You are He and I am he. We are we you are they.

I want to tell you that one cannot write to you. I write to you to you. I will tell you you
I want to write to write. I want not to sleep, but to shit.
I want that you went...
You went and I went
You do not want to walk there

Gulia gulia gulia lia lia
You are gu lia gu lia gu
You are gu gu gu gu gu
Gu gu gu gu gu gu gu.
You gu gu and I gu gu

I want to say that to sleep...
You do not want to sleep with me
I wish you and you with me...
We are you and you are in me.
I want you to you to you
You want for me you are He
I am He and you are in me.
We are you they are You....

I want to tell you
That you want to sleep sleep sleep.
I do not want want to sleep
You do not want want to sleep.
I will go and shit with you
You are to shi but I am not to shi.
I am not sha ming sha ming shi...

Thursday, January 06, 2022

A Reporter’s Footage from Inside the Capitol Siege | The New Yorker (1/6/21)




Today (Jan. 6, 2022) on cable TV, I heard Biden and Harris (and various CNN reporters) compare the Capitol riot to Pearl Harbor (2000 dead) and 9/11 (3000 dead) AND the Holocaust (6 million dead).

Total dead from the Jan. 6 riot: 4 Trump supporters (1 shot by police, 2 heart attack, 1 drug overdose), and 5 police officers (none died on that day: 1 later had two strokes, 4 committed suicide days or weeks later).
https://www.factcheck.org/2021/11/how-many-died-as-a-result-of-capitol-riot/

If this footage had not been shot by a left-wing organization like The New Yorker, it would have been taken down from YouTube.

Tuesday, January 04, 2022

Lonesome Life: George Jones (1964)





...Unchain my heart and let the world turn out its light
Have pity on me please, oh, won't you lonesome life

Oh, lonesome life, I've been through many things with you
Like sleepless nights and broken dreams and love we once knew
You know I served my purpose, so let's do what's right
And let me go from you, I plead oh, lonesome life...


Saturday, January 01, 2022

Alone on New Year's Eve...

I've been alone for forever, on multiple New Year's Eves. For me, it's not the "being alone" that's so ennervating, but rather the fireworks explosions of the youngsters living around me.

I live in Austin. And the city doesn't allow fireworks. Which doesn't keep people from exploding them on July 4 and New Year's. (Why have a city law if you're not going to enforce it?)

I always dread July 4 and December 31, because I don't know what assholes in my apartment complex are going to start setting off fireworks WITHIN the complex. There's an empty lot just in front of the complex. And the next street over is nothing but repair lots, which are empty on New Year's Eve. Why not go THERE?

It's not just me, it's my pets. I get unnerved at the explosions; they get scared. 

I always psyche myself up for "9pm to 3am"--- Is that not an unreasonable time frame? But in actuality, I think, on New Year's, that 11pm to 1am would be reasonable. 

p.s. written on 1/2: New Year's Eve wasn't so terrible this time! I was relieved when fireworks stopped around 2am.

A hopeful wish for 2022...

...that I'll have some places to go in order to show off my new purses!

While cleaning out my closet in late 2021, I came across purses whose leather had started to "peel" or "chafe" or, I don't know what you call the deterioration: 'Cause when I bought all of them over 10 years ago, I bought cheap shit claiming to be leather.

What I had in my closet was: a black purse, a brown purse, a red purse, a white purse, etc. (All now in shit-shape.) I applaud my 10-years-ago poor self for at least TRYING. But I nonetheless put all of these purses in a box to take to whatever Goodwill dumpster.

This past week pre the New Year, I discovered Poshmark, and revisited eBay purse listings, and went hog-wild. No guarantee that I'll be going anywhere with these purses, but at least I'll be PREPARED to go somewhere.

p.s. RE the two Dooney & Bourke purses: Back in the '90s, I used to mock the trendy "Dooney & Bourke" brand. And, back then, I worked in an office with a girl named "Donna" and a girl named "Brenda" who were very much into such things. I nicknamed them "Donna Dooney" and "Brenda Bourke." Now, D&B aren't so trendy, but they just looked good when I was shopping for expensive bags in earth tones.

Other brand names for purses I just discovered: Patricia Nash and Anuschka. A whole other world! Below are the purses that I just bought in past week:













Sunday, December 19, 2021

Two Hoots and a Holler: Step Fast

You make a lot of plans but you don't know what's in store...

Rick Broussard: "Good Used Heart"

George Jones: I'd Rather Have What We Had

George Jones: "I Don't Need Your Rocking Chair" (1992)

Cats and Plants and Books

I lived in an Austin duplex on Rainey Street from 1991 to 1994, which I paid $310 a month for. (The street is now an uber-developed condo/bar area, but at the time, it was a low-key strip of old 1930s family homes and duplexes.)

At the time, I had just broken up with my first girlfriend, and I was emotionally miserable. But one thing I also wrote in my journal then, and prayed for then: "I want to be surrounded by cats and plants and books..."

I didn't get what I wished then. In fact, I lost many cats during that 3-year time period: My black cat "Frances" disappeared. Her daughter "Toonces" got run over in front of me. A Christmas gift kitty "Katie Scarlett" was also run over (found her dead in my yard when I got home from work). Another gift-kitty died of leukemia a few weeks after I got her.

A miserable time in my life.

But today, RE "I want to be surrounded by cats and plants and books": I've got all of this: A mama cat who bore 3 kittens in my neighbor's backyard, plus a little niece hanging around---all mine now. And I've got all the books I want. And I have all the plants I want.

The girlfriend that I also prayed to have at the time, I did NOT get---thank you, God! :)  But the cats and plants and books---I'm glad to have received 25 years later.

Thursday, December 16, 2021

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang Theme Song

I can't get over how brilliant this movie is!
Both wildly optimistic and psychologically dark at the same time. So skillful on the part of the writers, the choreographers, and everyone else involved. You don't see many works of art like this nowadays.

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang: Doll on a Music Box / Truly Scrumptious

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang: Chu-Chi Face

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang: Roses of Success



Every bursted bubble has a glory!
Each abysmal failure makes a point!
Every glowing path that goes astray,
Shows you how to find a better way.
So every time you stumble never grumble.
Next time you'll bumble even less!
For up from the ashes, up from the ashes, grow the roses of success!
Grow the roses!
Grow the roses!
Grow the roses of success!
Oh yes!
Grow the roses!
Those rosy roses!
From the ashes of disaster grow the roses of success!
(spoken) Yes I know but he wants it to float. It will!
For every big mistake you make be grateful!
Here, here!
That mistake you'll never make again!
No sir!
Every shiny dream that fades and dies,
Generates the steam for two more tries!
(Oh) There's magic in the wake of a fiasco!
Correct!
It gives you that chance to second guess!
Oh yes!
Then up from the ashes, up from the ashes grow the roses of success!
Grow the roses!
Grow the roses!
Grow the roses of success!
Grow the roses!
Those rosy roses!
From the ashes of disaster grow the roses of success!
Disaster didn't stymie Louis Pasteur!
No sir!
Edison took years to see the light!
Right!
Alexander Graham knew failure well; he took a lot of knocks to ring that
bell!
So when it gets distressing it's a blessing!
Onward and upward you must press!
Yes, Yes!
Till up from the ashes, up from the ashes grow the roses of success.

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang: Me Ol' Bam-Boo

Tuesday, December 14, 2021

Living Room, 2021


Real proud of the plant stand that I turned into a book/knick-knack stand in my living room. Ha!
Oh, and the chair, too...

I don't feel anything right now other than content with my high-paying non-demanding work-from-home job and with buying stuff and with loving no-one. (The most miserable times in my life were when I loved someone and I wasn't loved in return.) I'm very grateful for the present peace.

 



 

Wednesday, December 08, 2021

John Lennon: (Just Like) Starting Over



John Lennon was shot dead at 10:50 pm on Monday, December 8, 1980. I had gone to bed the evening before listening to the first side of "Double Fantasy." When my mother came and woke me up for school on Tuesday morning, she immediately told me what had happened. My first odd thought was, "Did Yoko do it?"

I grew up with parents who didn't like each other at all. They divorced when I was 12. Their dis-ease with each other was obvious, but as a kid I lived with it, and with the some-time violence, but without feeling a sense of horror regarding the entire world.

I first discovered the Beatles and my favorite John Lennon when I was 15, in the summer of 1980. A local radio station was playing all of the Beatles' songs, and a local TV station was running the few Beatles movies. I felt happy when listening and watching. That same summer, I was sent to visit my father in South Dakota. He was awful to me. But while in South Dakota, I heard "Instant Karma" on the radio for the first time. When I got back to Texas, I found out that John Lennon was coming out with his first album in 5 years: "Double Fantasy." Released in November. When I first heard the album in full--at midnight, on a local rock station---I didn't love it at all. In fact, I remember thinking that it would now be sad to have to "leave" Lennon-fandom after all of these months... I bought the album anyway, and listened to it constantly anyway...

John Lennon's shooting on December 8, 1980, introduced me to a very strange feeling that I'd never experienced before. Like I said above, I'd been through awful things as a child, but I'd always somehow just been an observer, and I could consciously say to myself: "My father is behaving terribly" or "My mother is behaving terribly." And I didn't love either of them ("They're not on your side," a voice once said to me), so whatever they were doing wasn't so terrible because they had nothing to do with ME. But I LOVED John Lennon. And when he was shot dead, a weird psychological sense of horror ran through me for the first time. The world, the sky were not the same. This particular sense of horror didn't last more than two or three months at the time. But it came back later over and over again. Lennon's death introduced me to this horrific, other-worldly rift.



RINGS

once I walked in clear blue sky
waiting for the bus
my cheek against the ice-cold pane

Mama didn't work
she watched me at the stop
tearing the curls
she spent all morning fixing

who liked my dress?
all the boys, Mama
they give me their nickels
their jackets to wear

Raymond, Danny, Sylvester
we fly kites together
they walk me home
giving me rings
to wear forever

Monday, December 06, 2021

Workers of the World

The workers in MY world have been getting on my frigging nerves the past couple of weeks. The apartment complex management has gone on a binge of tree-cutting and leaf-blowing lately. 

Trees: The bottom-of-the-barrel tree-trimmers don't know shit about trimming trees. They've just been slicing off major limbs left and right, leaving a big stem, basically. It's awful to look at. Aside from the theoretical gripe with their inability to chops limbs correctly, my personal gripe is: The stupid tree-trimmers broke a couple of my plant pots in the backyard last week and didn't even knock on my door to apologize. And yet another group of tree-trimmers had their portable stereo blasting last week while they were clearing out brush---after about a half-hour, I had to go out there and tell them to please turn down their music. One guy said, "Oh, OK, " then a few minutes later it was blasting again, and I had to go back out there again. Have some respect for the neighbors, you fucking idiots.

Leaf-Blowing: After 6 months of no leaf-clearing (and after 3 or so requests from me to have the dead leaves cleared out from my backyard), the apartment management finally sent a crew out to blow the leaves away. I had to listen to their loud shit for over 5 hours last Saturday. (Prior to 6 months ago, a leaf-blower guy would come every Tuesday and, voila, the leaves on my sidewalk and in my yard would be gone in about 20 minutes. Not sure why it now took 5 hours.) Around 3 pm, the blowing-machines finally stopped, and I thought I could finally relax... Well, until I looked out my front window to see one of the guys pulling out his dick and taking a piss on a bush just outside of my window! Part of me said, "Be cool," but the bigger part of me said, "Tell that motherfucker to get the fuck away from your window." (Latter part won---I jerked open my door and scared that idiot off, then reported him to the apartment office.)

Who needs this stupid shit? I feel like I've been flashed back to my younger self, circa 1990-2000. Only then, I just put up with everything, and now I'm dead set on confronting everything. The ultimate goal, though, is to not be around any of this shit at all.

2021 US National Book Award Winners (asterisk by all)

 First, here's a list of former Natl Book Award winners: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_winners_of_the_National_Book_Award

Compare this year's to years previous. You'll see that "merit" has degenerated to "politically correct" and "racially diverse."

I hadn't paid attention to literary awards for years, but Sunday night, while trying to find something to fall asleep to, happened upon a re-run on C-Span of what used to be the most prestigious award in US literature.

The host of the literary awards was a young black female: Phoebe Robinson. Humor on the level of a 3rd-grader. For this supposedly literate crowd? She wasn't literate, and she was only barely funny in a juvenile way. Why in the world was she chosen to host? Oh...

Categories that I happened to catch in the last half of the show:

POETRY: Chaired by leftist black man. Board of judges: Leftist Asian woman, leftist Native American woman, leftist Deaf Jewish man, leftist feminist. Winner: Leftist Hispanic male (Martin Espada). 

NON-FICTION: Chaired by leftist black woman. Board of judges: Two leftist feminists, leftist Native American man, leftist black man. Winner: Leftist black woman (Tiya Miles).

FICTION: Chaired by leftist Hispanic man. Board of judges: Leftist white male (the token white male, but then he hates himself: "masculinity can be such a pathology"), leftist lesbian, leftist black female, Asian man. Winner: Leftist gay black male (Jason Mott).

As someone who grew up loving literature, the above makes me sick. Asterisk by every single one of the so-called "winners" of the award: You won not because of your writing merit but because the country was currently in the sway of left-wing racial politics and the National Book Award board was too weak to stand up intellectually.

For shame, all of you. Your sub-par racist criteria are a disgrace to real writing, real literature.

Friday, December 03, 2021

George & Tammy: It's An Old Love Thing (1995)

The two had been divorced since 1976, and hadn't recorded together since 1980, but, out of the blue, just as I was discovering both of them for the first time in 1994, they put out this album, "One"---I was thrilled. And thought the whole world would receive it as if the Beatles had gotten back together! But, nah... Even the country world wasn't that excited---it reached only #12 on the US Country Billboard chart. (Regardless of who was or was not excited, the fact that George Jones and Tammy Wynette made another album together after 15 years was actually a very big deal.)

"One" was the last album that Tammy Wynette recorded. She died at age 55 in April 1998. George Jones died at age 81 in April 2013. I was able to see him twice in concert in the late '90s: At the Travis County Expo Center, and at Stubb's in Austin. (At the latter event, where I was in the 2nd row with my friend Jerry, the great UT coach Darrell Royal was in attendance, seated in an area above the main floor. George acknowledged him, to great applause. George also made eye contact with me during the show---that sounds wishful on my part, perhaps, but... In all of the shows I've been to, I only remember eye contact with two performers: Kathy Valentine of the Go-Gos at Austin's Erwin Center in the '80s, and George Jones at the Stubbs show. So maybe it's true.)


Monday, November 29, 2021

Hart Crane: Chaplinesque (1926)

We make our meek adjustments,
Contented with such random consolations
As the wind deposits
In slithered and too ample pockets.

For we can still love the world, who find
A famished kitten on the step, and know
Recesses for it from the fury of the street,
Or warm torn elbow coverts.

We will sidestep, and to the final smirk
Dally the doom of that inevitable thumb
That slowly chafes its puckered index toward us,
Facing the dull squint with what innocence
And what surprise!

And yet these fine collapses are not lies
More than the pirouettes of any pliant cane;
Our obsequies are, in a way, no enterprise.
We can evade you, and all else but the heart:
What blame to us if the heart live on.

The game enforces smirks; but we have seen
The moon in lonely alleys make
A grail of laughter of an empty ash can,
And through all sound of gaiety and quest
Have heard a kitten in the wilderness.

I can't think of the last time I saw the stars.

I learned in school, about age 7 or 8, that the sun was a star. And ever since then, I was amazed by all of the other stars in the sky. (Figured out immediately that there was other life out there.) 

Similarly while growing up, I would find spiral-shaped fossils in the dirt, and I recognized that these were from millions of years ago. And while traveling by car from Texas to California in the mid-'90s, I thought to myself about the landscape, "This looks like the barren, leftover bottom of the ocean"--- I didn't know at that time that that was exactly what this landscape was millions of years ago: the Western Interior Seaway.

https://www.cretaceousatlas.org/geology/

I know some things, I miss the stars.

Sunday, November 28, 2021

George Jones: "Tell Me My Lying Eyes Are Wrong" (1970)

Bay City Rollers: Rock 'n Roll Love Letter (1976)

A Cat or a Hot-Water Bottle

I've got 5 cats. Stray cat Mama Hennessy that I'd been feeding in 2018 spewed her babies out in April 2019 in my neighbor's backyard in the middle of a rainstorm.

I posted "free kittens" signs and nobody wanted the babies... So they're all mine: Hennessy, Pete, Solomon (Mini), Sasha-Su; and then the later-adopted Cinco (December 2019, huddling in the backyard, then huddling on the front ledge).

Two years in to this multi-cat adventure: All five of the cats move along with me. If I'm lying on the couch, they all bunch up on the couch with me. If I sit at my computer, they all lie in their cat-beds right next to me and my computer.

It's kind of cute. Sometimes. When I'm trying to sleep on my couch, it's hard to sleep with 3 or 4 cats at/on my feet. They get heavy. Sometimes I want to move my feet and legs and shove them off, but then I feel guilty.

Reminded of something that Sylvia Plath said while visiting a home in England: "Do you want a cat or a hot-water bottle?" (Cats are indeed warm if they lie quietly, but they don't always lie quietly!) Which would YOU choose?

There is a myth that cats are solitary. The only reason they're supposedly solitary is that they've usually been separated at birth. These cats of mine run in a pack and like to sleep in a pack, on top of each other, and of me.


Thanksgiving Post-WWI

Read Caresse Crosby's "The Passionate Years" and Malcolm Cowley's "Exile's Return" this long weekend. Now starting on the Hart Crane bio.





 

Monday, November 22, 2021

Conversations with Strangers

Before I turned 40, plenty of random people came up to me on the street/in the classroom/in the workplace to strike up conversations: all male. At the time, I thought that they were just talking to me because I was so obviously smart and intriguing. Ha! In truth, I looked much cuter then, and they were interested in sex. One blatant example: A young guy in San Francisco came and sat next to me on the bus. We were chatting amiably, but the second I told him I was gay, he literally got up and moved to another seat without any appropriate segue!

Cut to today: I'm now middle-aged. Young men don't make passes at me. But what I discovered this past week is that fellow middle-aged women have now apparently acknowledged me as one of their own and we're now bonding: When I got my Covid shot at the supermarket pharmacy, I had a lengthy fun conversation with an ultra-supportive middle-aged mom there for her flu shot. And I've had a couple of other 50-something women smile broadly at me in passing in the past couple of days. (In the olden days, the only people who would smile at me were men, both younger and older.)

Are the smiles of other 50-plus women a recognition of our current shared state? If so, I welcome them. I would like some friends.

Thanksgiving Supplies!

 Went grocery shopping today. Prepared for Thanksgiving by myself on Thursday!

 

Back in the '90s, working among fellow 30-something hipsters, one girl said to me smugly re her and her boyfriend: "We're going to a bar and ordering hamburgers for Thanksgiving." As I said at the time: Not me. I can go to a bar and order a hamburger any day of the week. Who wants that same depressing shit on Thanksgiving?

At that time, in the '90s, I had my mother's home to go to. The crescent rolls and cranberry sauce were canned, as above---and I like them like that! But the turkey and potatoes and pie were home-made. I miss those. But I reproduce the whole scenario as best I can. Will heat some of the above, as required, and watch the Dallas Cowboys play on TV, as I have since my youth---it will be a reproduction of my childhood Thanksgiving day, as close as possible. (Even when I was in San Francisco or New York for Thanksgiving, I always at least bought a frozen turkey dinner and ate that in mocking honor of the day. And the Cowboys have always been there for every Thanksgiving.)

The only thing I forgot today while grocery-shopping: My LeSeuer peas! My first Thanksgiving with my first girlfriend in 1989, I made a big scene and insisted that we go back to the store for said peas. Hmmm----Will I be so insistent with myself this week?

Saturday, November 20, 2021

Kyle Rittenhouse: Not Guilty

Rittenhouse was charged with the murder of two rioters on the streets of Kenosha, Wisconsin, in August 2020. As videos from the trial showed, Rittenhouse fired at the said victims only after each had attacked him first.

Joseph Rosenbaum was one of the two rioters that Rittenhouse shot dead after being attacked. Rosenbaum's police record:

Newly released Joseph Rosenbaum sex offender documents obtained by Wisconsin Right Now from the Pima County (Arizona) Clerk of Courts confirm Joseph Rosenbaum was charged by a grand jury with 11 counts of child molestation and inappropriate sexual activity around children, including anal rape. The victims were five boys ranging in age from nine to 11 years old. 

Probably good that the pedophile Anarchist Rosenbaum was shot dead.

Overview: The police of Kenosha, Wisconsin, should have been in charge of keeping the streets peaceful back in August 2020 after the shooting of Jacob Blake (a criminal shot by police while being arrested for sexual assault and other charges). But the police were forbidden from doing so by both the city mayor and the state governor, neither of whom called out the National Guard to prevent the ongoing street violence. When city officials don't allow the police to do their job, then citizens might feel obligated to take matters into their own hands.


Friday, November 19, 2021

Got my second Covid vax shot this week.

Forced to get the Covid vax because of Biden: Back in October, Biden decreed that all Federal workers (and Federal contractors) get shots or else be fired. I'm making a lot of money, and I didn't want to be fired, so I got the two-part Moderna shot, October 20 and November 17.

Getting said shots was anti-science, though: Infection rates were lower in 2020, pre vaccine. Masks don't matter because microbes don't care about masks. The AVERAGE age of death from Covid in 2020 was 80. Today, in 2021, it's still 80. Since Covid became known in Austin, Texas, in March 2020, about 1300 people have officially died (in a city of over 1 million). RE the number of people who have died: The Federal government reimburses money to the hospital ONLY if the patient has Covid. If they're admitted to a hospital for any other reason---if they're old with other underlying diseases, if they have the flu---the hospital only gets Federal money if the patients are diagnosed with Covid.

It's a complete financial scam. But, yeah, I got the shots to keep my job. And now I can go to the Austin Symphony (ha!) or travel abroad!

p.s. When I went to my local grocery store for my second shot, the dim-witted pseudo-pharmacist told me his story: When he'd gotten the second shot, it was so harsh he subsequently slept for "20 hours." When I got MY second shot (Moderna), it felt worse than the first, but I certainly did not sleep for 20 hours (what a drama queen). My arm hurt, and I did go to bed early that night and feel cranky the next day... but the day after, I felt fine.

Monday, November 15, 2021

JOHNNY GUITAR (Masters of Cinema) 2021 trailer


In Praise of Karens

Were it not for Karens (i.e. "women of European ancestry who don't put up with bullshit in their homes or neighborhoods"), the world would be in chaos. (Sorry, black women, but...look at your men. Y'all don't have such a great record when it comes to keeping their chaotic behavior in check.)

Back in the '80s, there was a "Broken Window Theory" proposed by social scientists:

First introduced in 1982 by social scientists James Q. Wilson and George L. Kelling, the broken window theory posits that small criminal acts within a community — graffiti being a prime example — creates an environment that breeds more (and more serious) crime. The idea is that an offender may feel more inclined or justified to commit further antisocial crimes in an area where antisocial crime has not been confronted. 

Exactly. Today, such dampers on assholes don't seem to be popular. In fact, we "Karens" are mocked. But we actually play an important role in the ongoing attempt to maintain a pleasant environment. 

My own Karen-ness in the past 4 years at my apartment complex:

2017: When I first moved in, a group of low-lifes lived in an apartment above me. Constantly partying, constantly playing loud music, and setting off fireworks within the complex. Went out to ask them to shut up multiple times. When that didn't work, reported them multiple times to apartment management until they finally moved out.

2018-2019: A different set of guys who also set off fireworks within the complex and also liked to sit in their truck in the parking lot and blare their music. Went out to ask them to shut up multiple times and also reported them multiple times to management until they finally moved out.

Past couple of days: Tree-trimmers for the apartment blaring their music. Didn't say anything Saturday. DID say something today---twice. Went out and nicely asked them to turn down their music. They stopped for about an hour, then jacked it up again. I then went and reported them to apartment management, who called their boss.

You're welcome, neighbors. (And don't tell me you weren't irritated by that shit but were just too cowardly to say anything yourselves. It takes a Karen.)

Sunday, November 14, 2021

You Get Your Turn, If You're Lucky

I've got two varying Theories o' Life:

One: When a man ejaculates, he releases millions of sperm. Only one of those millions of sperm reaches the woman's egg. And even if the sperm reaches the egg and fertilizes it, the woman may then choose to abort you. So if you're actually born, be extremely grateful: You're one in millions.

Two: At one of my lowest points, I saw an episode of "The Twilight Zone" on TV:
"The After Hours," from 1960. A woman shopping in a department store encountered various oddly behaving sales-people and mannequins. As it turned out, the woman herself had been one of the mannequins, who were each allowed a brief time to go out into the world, and it was now time for her to go back.

Watching that "Twilight Zone" episode, I had a flash of recognition: We're all like those mannequins. You get your turn, and then you must go back. Be grateful for your brief chance. (And be grateful if you even had a chance in the first place.)

Thursday, November 11, 2021

Google Fiber

Had to sit through 2 hours of Google Fiber being installed in my apartment today (after "45 minutes to 1 hour" claim). Was relieved to learn that having the Google Fiber option did not mean that I was FORCED to get it (nor did the workers installing it interfere with my Spectrum Internet service). Unlike the recent conversion in my apartment complex of all washers/dryers to APP-ONLY. Or the recent conversion of America per Biden order to VAX-ONLY (or else you won't have a job).

RE the app-only washers: About 2 years ago, the complex went from quarters to swiping debit cards---that was perfect for me. (Constantly having to ask store-owners for quarters was a pain; a debit-card swipe was easy.)

After the app-only switch last month, I've now done a few loads of washes with the app, and no glitches (other than the app not recognizing one load of laundry in a dryer, so I had to move the load to a recognized dryer). Luckily, I bought a smart phone last July. What if I hadn't, though? What was wrong with the debit-card option---which has always been glitch-free.

As for the Google Fiber installation:
The main guy doing the installation was from El Salvador. After complimenting me on my uncluttered apartment (he said that most of the apartments he'd been in today had so much stuff against the walls, it was hard to install the Google Fiber stuff), he then saw that I had Fox on TV, which led to a discussion about political beliefs. He came to the US 30 years ago after escaping from El Salvador's FMNL communist government. And last year, one of his work-trucks was caught amidst the Austin riots, and he instructed his workers to get out rather than engage. (This revelation because we were discussing the Kyle Rittenhouse court proceedings being shown on cable---I argued that had the city officials allowed the police to quell the riots, then there would have been no need for any citizens to go out to attempt to "help.")

After the above hard-core El Salvadoran vet was finished with HIS Google Fiber work, he sent in his minion to finish the job, a young guy from Saudi Arabia that he earlier said "didn't know how to work." (Ah, the different prejudices among different people.) This young guy was pleasant enough, and at the end of his tasks, while he and I were chatting about how much faster Google Fiber might actually be, he looked up at my wall where I had a framed picture of Tammy Wynette and George Jones, and asked: "Is that you up there?"

Me: What?!
Him: Is that you in that picture?

Wow! Thank you, myopic young man from Saudi Arabia!

He then asked if that man with her in the picture was blind! I couldn't quite explain the history of Tammy Wynette and George Jones, but asked him to be sure and look up the song "Stand By Your Man." (But, yes, George Jones may have been blind.)


Tuesday, November 09, 2021

The Worst Place I Ever Lived

1715-A Taylor Gaines in Austin, Texas. 

Duplex (my side was at the front, on both sides of the carport shown here).
Paid $495 per month from February 1996 to August 1997.
765 sq ft. 1 bed, 1 bath, backyard, washer/dryer.

My situation: Just finished grad school at San Francisco State in December 1995, then moved back to Austin. Lived with my mother in San Antonio around Christmas, then with my brother in Austin for a month from January 1996 until February 1996; he then told my mother he didn't want me there any more, so she paid my deposit and first month's rent at this place. I found temp work at the University, but things were constantly tight during this time.



Why I Hated It:
 
Physical Reasons:
 
It was always hot. Only one small window-unit AC in the bedroom, and the cool air never spread into the living room.
 
Lizards. Constantly came in the duplex itself, but especially swarmed in the laundry room, so that I was afraid to go in there. And when I went out at night and left my porch light on, when I came home, there were literally HUNDREDS of lizards covering both the wall around the light AND my front door! (I've never seen such a creepy phenomenon, either before or since.)

Neighbor Reasons:
 
To the left of my duplex lived a single Hispanic mom with a teenaged son. When the mom was away (often at night), the son liked to have friends over and play loud music and run around on top of their roof---screaming. I called the police a couple of times, but they never showed up.
 
My duplex neighbor was a non-smiling late-30s white guy with a "Heritage Not Hate" Confederate sticker on his bumper. As a 31-year-old white woman, this was not personally threatening, but... I was then a liberal and had been used to living around other mild-mannered college students and liberals, so the sticker was a bit disturbing. This guy was, for the most part, ultimately not a problem, but he WAS a bit of a bitch. (See the "Crime Reasons" section below.) And then, finally: On the last day I lived at this place (8/14/97), my phone had already been turned off, but I had received a notice stuck to my door that I was responsible for cutting my backyard grass; the notice said that I would not receive my deposit if I did not cut the grass. As it turned out, my brother had actually cut my grass as a birthday gift just 3 days prior (8/11), so...why the notice? I asked to use my neighbor's phone so I could bitch at the management company about this potential lack of deposit return (which I needed desperately)... After listening to my conversation, the neighbor disdainfully asked me: "Where are you FROM?" (Insinuating that I was rude on the phone to the landord and "not Southern," I suppose. He didn't have anything to say about my "Azle, Texas" reply. But just an example of a generally shitty atmosphere.)
 

Crime Reasons:
 
Christmas 1996: Went to my mom's in San Antonio for a couple of days at Christmas. When I got home, found out my duplex neighbor's place had been burgled. The burglars broke in through a window that looked like it was on my side of the duplex but was actually the neighbor's place. The neighbor insinuated that it might have been my fault.

April 30, 1997: On the day that Ellen DeGeneres came out on TV, and on the day that I was sitting there reading my father's military psychological reports that my mother had recently given me, a car smashed into my duplex. Some drug-addled gay guy had run his car UP a steep driveway and bashed in my bedroom wall (and shaken me up while I was sitting there in my living room). When I went out to see what the hell had just happened, I saw the guy, but he then ran off and left his car sitting right there. I called the police, but they didn't show up for at least 3 hours despite numerous calls. When my neighbor came home, he thought I'd allowed a friend to park in his spot of the carport (heaven forbid!), so he, like a bitch, parked his car right behind the crashed car to "teach me a lesson."

Psychological Reasons:
 
While living here, I was still in love with my first girlfriend/lover (met in 1989, broken up in 1991, but still seeing each other afterwards). We'd seen each other out at clubs recently, and at one point, she asked for my new number. When she called, I was THRILLED. But, as it turned out, what she wanted was: Back in '90 or so, she'd given me her credit card, and I'd bought a new battery for my car. Something like $60 back then. But she now wanted me to pay off her entire credit card debt. I sat out on the bumper of my car and wept.

Before leaving for grad school in San Francisco in '94, I'd been seeing a married man that I'd met at work. We kept in touch while I was away, and then planned to meet once I was back in Austin. He stood me up while I lived here.

I had two random guys over to this place. One was a local musician that I'd met at a "Two Hoots and a Holler" show. He came over, and I listened to him play guitar, but there was no connection at all, and he left pleasantly. (Though later, I was chastised by Rick Broussard of Two Hoots himself: "You didn't know he was married?" Uh, no, he didn't mention that.) The second was a guy I met in the parking lot coming out of a Two Hoots show at 2am or thereabouts. He asked if I wanted to do some cocaine, and I, being sad and lonely, said "sure." We came back to this place and listened to music. At one point he put his hand on my thigh, and I inadvertently recoiled. His face changed and he said, "Don't do that." I apologized for being rude, and we went on talking until daybreak, when I called in sick to work. I got lucky: This guy could have killed me. The first guy was known in the local music community, but the second guy was a complete stranger, and a wired stranger at that. I wasn't raped this time, but I would be raped in 2000 under similar circumstances after inviting a seemingly friendly stranger to my place.


Maintenance and Landlord Reasons:
 
When I got cable installed, the cable guy left a huge gaping hole in my wall that was not covered by the cable plate. He was going to leave it looking like that until I refused to pay anything.

When some maintenance guys were over for repairs, somebody took a huge dump in my toilet, exploding shit everywhere---not just IN the toilet, but across the lid, etc. I didn't say anything, just meekly cleaned it all up.

Some Hispanic guys came to my door asking if I needed my lawn mowed for $10. I did, but all I had was a $20. They volunteered to go get change. (Ha! Stupid me.)

Near the end of my lease, my brother cut my grass on 8/11 (I'd asked for that as a birthday gift). But then, on 8/14, the landlord posted a message on my door saying that since my grass hadn't been cut, I would not get my deposit back. I protested this blatant fake attempt to deny me my deposit. I can't remember what my original deposit was---back in the '90s, Austin deposits were quite low, maybe half the rent. Whatever the deposit was, I was told that I'd get $20 back. Not half, as in $250, but $20. A couple of months later, I still had not even received the meager check for $20. When I called the management office to complain, the manager said to me on the phone: "You're THAT desperate for $20?"

That, in a nutshell, was my life during this time. Everything was shitty (sometimes literally).

Sunday, November 07, 2021

"Meet Cute": Never For Me

Last time I had a near-"Meet Cute" moment was in 2009 when I lived in Weehawken, New Jersey, along the Hudson River overlooking the NYC skyline. One evening, I was leaning on a wall overlooking the beautiful skyline when a fluffy white dog sans leash came bounding toward me. I bent down to pet her and ask where she came from. According to The Movies, a charming person should have been chasing after the pet, and we would have Met Cute. Alas, in my case above, a minute or so later, a mentally-challenged guy missing teeth ran up. Yes, it was his dog who had gotten loose. But no, he in his drug/drink-addled state was not capable of any coherent conversation. Sigh.

Just this past week, I had another potential "Urban Meet Cute" event: I went to my local corner store to get my usual week's supply of cheap Marlboro Light cigarettes. Ahead of me in line was an attractive Indian woman buying a couple of health drinks. She got her drinks and left, then I got my cigs and left. When I walked out of the store, the woman was waiting outside. She asked if she could buy one cigarette from me for $1... Puzzled, I asked why in the world... She said that she herself never bought a whole pack of cigarettes but was trying to find a type of cigarette that she liked... She had tried Lucky Strike, etc. Now, at this point, I was thinking that she was either a social smoker who really never did buy a pack for herself, or that she had a husband at home who didn't permit smoking. So I dug out one of my just-bought packs of Marlboro Lights and unwrapped it and let her take a cigarette out for herself (no charge). She sniffed at it and then said: "Oh no, this is terrible, you should never smoke this." Annoyed at the un-asked-for lecture, I said: "Well YOU were the one who asked for one of my cigarettes!" And she got in her car and left in a huff. And I then felt bad about myself because I'd somehow attracted this weirdo to interact with me!

Sigh.

Wednesday, November 03, 2021

Let's Go Brandon: Forgiato Blow




[Verse]
Americans screamin' "Let's go, Brandon" (Let's go, Brandon)
Patriots screamin' "f*ck Joe Biden" (f*ck Joe Biden)
The media, they tryna play us like fools, yeah (Play us like fools)
You know she heard "f*ck Biden" too, yeah (Haha)
Sleepy Joe ain't got no support (Sleepy Joe)
Hunter Biden better show up to court (Hunter Biden)
Fake nеws tryna silence the truth, yеah (Yeah)
We the people tryna save the youth, yeah (Tryna save 'em)
I ain't takin' no vaccine (Nah)
I ain't flyin' Southwest, don't ask me, no (Don't ask me)
And I ain't wearin' no mask, they nasty (No masks)
And all you liberals better tryin' harass me (Huh, bitch)
You know we tried to stop the steal (Stop the steal)
They or me, Republican, pop the red pill (Pop a red pill)
Now the whole world screamin' "f*ck Joe Biden" (f*ck Joe Biden)
Proud Americans in PDs, I hear wylin'
Let's go, Brandon, let's go, Brandon
Let's go, Brandon, let's go, Brandon (Hahaha)
Let's go, Brandon, let's go, Brandon (Let's go Brandon, woo)
Yeah, f*ck Joe Biden (f*ck Joe)

[Outro]
Let's go, Brandon
That's also a new favorite among Americans
Winning a big race, Brandon Brown
After his big victory in Talladega
Oh, the reporter actually thinks they were saying, cheering Brandon
When you listen closely, no, they're not

Ha, you know they ain't (Hahaha)
They tryna spin it on the 'peachin' (They tryna blame us)
But you can never play the patriots, I told you

Joe, you went viral again
No, they weren't chanting "Let's go, Brandon" at all
You, the American people, have every reason to be angry at Joe Biden
He is failing this country around every turn
Every American is paying the price, the world is paying the price

Let's Go Brandon: Loza Alexander




Ayy, you know what they sayin', though (fuck Joe Biden)
Ayy, you know what they, woo (fuck Joe Biden)
Yeah, uh, you know what they, yeah (fuck Joe Biden)
Ayy (fuck Joe Biden)

And I say it wit' a passion (fuck Joe Biden)
As I pull off in the Aston (fuck Joe Biden)
Don't nobody like his ass, huh? (fuck Joe Biden)
Tried to cover up, but tell the people, go Brandon (fuck Joe Biden)
But we know what they sayin', though (fuck Joe Biden)
You can hear the chant in every post (fuck Joe Biden)
Don't nobody want this commie 'cause we not in China (fuck Joe Biden)
Everybody hated Trump and now they out to catch a body (fuck Joe Biden)
That's what they get for treatin' us like we in Squid Games (fuck Joe Biden)
Dream light, mandate like he's insane (fuck Joe Biden)
These times, people wakin' up to everything (fuck Joe Biden)
Go Brandon, but we all know what the sayin' mean

(Let's go, Brandon) (fuck Joe Biden)
(Let's go, Brandon) (fuck Joe Biden) you know what they sayin'...

Let's Go Brandon: Topher (feat. @D.Cure & @The Marine Rapper)


 

Brandon, Brandon, Brandon
Picked the wrong race, bud
But don’t worry
We givin’ everybody the smoke today
Ayy

Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy
Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy

NASCAR got em chantin’, ayy, “Let’s go Brandon”
Some don’t understand it, who really commandin’?
Left Kabul abandoned, how dare he do it Dannon
He don’t want us to breathe, the strangler from Scranton
Someone give assisted livin’ a call, “Get your man back”
He don’t know what’s real at a-a-all, what about Amtrak?
They don’t care about this virus, really, flights are jam-packed
Everybody gotta go and get a vaccine when I’m askin’, you better have a stamp
Prices risin’ by the minute
Tell me, you want Biden in it?
Mask required, I don’t go get it
I am not complyin’ wit’ it
Got that drive, don’t try to rent it
When I exercise and try to limit my DVR
Everybody wanna lie, my reply, let’s go TMR

Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy
Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy

Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go, let’s go, Joe Biden, oh yes, he must go
For what he did to the thirteen, just know that I’ll never let go
Military, all my vets know, my family, like Toretto
Yes I’m furious, on petrol, let’s go, let’s go, let’s go, let’s go
Joe, you nuts like Chip and Dale if you think that you’ll ever Earnhardt
You a senior touchin’ juniors, can’t you let her finish school first? (Ew)
You like them eleven, call twelve, and I hope the thirteen haunt you
And my smoke, you do not want it, all my lines are dope like Hunter
Rocky, I’m Apollo Creed’s, only legacy, of the rap scene
It’s the Marine, artillery, shot more arms than a vaccine
Ain’t doing Nathan for the human races
You just ruin things and you the biggest racist
You the biggest liar, but you ain’t on fire
Like you Will Ferrell out at Talladega, let’s go!

Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy
Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy

Uh, ayy
America don’t care about you, Joe (We need some milk)
I thought that you should know (Let’s go)
Got us rollin’ back the curtains on the stage, you done set (Uh huh)
Treat you more Alec Baldwin since bein’ a prop is now a threat

Ooh (Ooh)
Most popular president in U.S. history (What?)
How they calculated that still remains a mystery (Yeah)
Economy isn’t great (Yeah), containers stuck at bay (Yeah)
And you have no current plan for the caravan on its way (Sheesh)
Talkin’ “Build Back Better” (Really?), more like build back broke (Yeah)
Gas prices so high, it’ll make a dope fiend choke (Ahem)
As a veteran, I try to respect the commander-in-chief (I do)
But if I’m honest, “Let’s go Brandon” brings amazing relief, uh

Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy
Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go Brandon, ayy

Candy Says: Velvet Underground (1969)



Candy says I've come to hate my body
And all that it requires in this world
Candy says I'd like to know completely
What others so discretely talk about

I'm gonna watch the blue birds fly over my shoulder
I'm gonna watch them pass me by
Maybe when I'm older
What do you think I'd see
If I could walk away from me

Candy says I hate the quiet places
That cause the smallest taste of what will be
Candy says I hate the big decisions
That cause endless revisions in my mind

I'm gonna watch the blue birds fly over my shoulder
I'm gonna watch them pass me by
Maybe when I'm older
What do you think I'd see
If I could walk away from me

John Lennon: Woman Is The Nigger Of The World (1972)



Woman is the nigger of the world
Yes she is... think about it
Woman is the nigger of the world
Think about it... do something about it

We make her paint her face and dance
If she won't be a slave, we say that she don't love us
If she's real, we say she's trying to be a man
While putting her down we pretend that she's above us

Woman is the nigger of the world... yes she is
If you don't believe me take a look at the one you're with
Woman is the slave of the slaves
Ah yeah... better scream about it

We make her bear and raise our children
And then we leave her flat for being a fat old mother hen
We tell her home is the only place she should be
Then we complain that she's too unworldly to be our friend

Woman is the nigger of the world...yes she is
If you don't believe me take a look at the one you're with
Woman is the slave to the slaves
Yeah (think about it)

We insult her everyday on TV
And wonder why she has no guts or confidence
When she's young we kill her will to be free
While telling her not to be so smart we put her down for being so dumb

Woman is the nigger of the world... yes she is
If you don't believe me take a look at the one you're with
Woman is the slave to the slaves
Yes she is... if you believe me, you better scream about it

[Repeat:]
We make her paint her face and dance
We make her paint her face and dance
We make her paint her face and dance